So here I am, on a sunny Sunday in September writing my first proper blog post after about four years of deliberation. Why has it taken so long? Well, let me tell you…
I am exactly 10 days away from my 32nd birthday, and whilst I obviously know this is by no means ‘old’, the realisation has hit me that I first toyed with the idea of doing this wayyyy back in 2014. I’ve spent time wondering where I could be now if I had taken the plunge then, (don’t worry, I’m not delusional and thinking I could be the next LEM, but a girl can dream!) and if I’d started this when I first wanted to, it’d be four years down the line. I’d have four years more experience in developing a writing style, four years to evolve and create a blog that I’m proud of and who knows, I probably could made a few blogging friends along the way.
So a few days ago I just thought f*ck it, what exactly is it I am waiting on?! And I decided, it’s now or never.
One of the reasons I’ve held back until now is because the blogging space can be quite intimidating. As an avid follower of many of the most popular UK bloggers, it’s very easy to see Instagram post after post of jet setters and wonder if this is the lifestyle you need to have to create engaging content that will hopefully build you your own audience. Now, I’m not knocking this at all, it’s what I love to see when I read these blogs, but you can’t help but think, ‘Crap, I work ten hour days in an office in London, I don’t have the Maldives, Japan or Kenya as my backdrop in photos, therefore will people care?’ And the answer (I hope) is yes, because people read blogs because they relate to and/or like that person, or they value their opinion when they review a beauty product they like or talk about the latest collection from their favourite brand. Everyone has their own way and style, and they’re all equally amazing.
Another reason, is one that I’m kind of ashamed to admit. The dreaded ‘What will people think?’. Now, I’m someone who tries not to give too much thought to what other people think, if their opinions are negative. I know who I am, I’m a good person and as long as my family and friends know that too, and any action I take doesn’t hurt anyone else, then I try to live my life for me. However, the above question did feature in my thought process when I was weighing up why I should/shouldn’t start a blog. It went a bit like this:
- ‘People will think I’m a dreamer, there are so many bloggers out there’. I started my own little space because I love writing, and I love the topics I’m going to write about. Who knows where the future will take me, but I haven’t gone into the blogging game under the illusion that I’m going to be the next big thing and pulling in collabs with Dior.
- ‘I don’t have any writing experience, people will think my writing is shit’. I thought a lot about the fact that I didn’t have any experience with writing and wondered if this would be blatantly obvious when I started posting. Maybe it shows, maybe it doesn’t. But hey, considering one of the reasons I started was to become a half decent writer, I can only improve as I go along, right?
- ‘People will think I don’t know what I’m talking about’. Now, this is the thought that I’m most annoyed at myself for having. Blogs usually start as passion projects, where people discuss topics they love to talk about, with other like minded people. There isn’t some sort of special degree or other qualification that I’m aware of that you need to start a blog. All I know is, I know what I like and I know that I know my shiz. Some people will agree, others won’t. But you can’t win ‘em all as they say.
In saying this though, what I have discovered is that many people are, in fact, very encouraging. Many of those I informed of my plan told me to go for it, that I had nothing to lose. Others, have offered up looks or thoughts that allowed me into their minds for a minute to discover that their opinion was clearly that of Exhibit A, above. Meh.
Lastly, I worried that I wouldn’t have enough time to produce something that I’m proud of putting my name to. Many of the bloggers I follow do this full time, whereas I hold down a full time job in marketing. In essence, I didn’t want to produce something that looked a bit crap. However, I have acknowledged that everyone has to start somewhere, and if my blog does start off looking a bit rubbish then that’s a good thing, as it means there’s room for improvement and it can only get better! Winning.
In the end, all I know is that wherever this blog takes me, I’m so excited I’ve started. I can’t wait to come up with ideas and decide how I’m going to make them work. I can’t wait to write posts and publish them, even if only four people read them. I can’t wait to upload terrible photography, only to see it become sharper as times goes on.
Wish me luck…eeeeeek!